When It's Just Too Much

Sitting here waiting on my mom to finish a procedure and just thinking as usual.

So yesterday at 9am I went to have my annual exam completed not expecting to be referred to a counselor since I was just there to see a GYN....but that was just another clear sign for me that I can't continue being superwoman. My GYN could tell by looking into my eyes that I'm going through a lot, Sunday a church member prayed with me and said the same thing "baby I can see the hurt in your eyes" and yesterday two people told me I need to make sure to give myself some time b/c they could tell I'm just not myself....all these comments this week were nothing but reassurance of something I had been contemplating the past few weeks...this is just more than I can handle and there's nothing wrong with having a counselor to help me through it.  I'd rather do that than be in over my head, I know I have a bright future ahead because we all do!

You never really know the toll certain circumstances can take on you until you are put in those situations.  It's easy to speculate how you would handle something but its much more different when you really have to go through it.  That's why we should always encourage one another and listen to one another. Don't judge how people handle specific situations based on what you would do, because half of the time you haven't been in that person's shoes and everybody can't handle the same situation the same way...people handle different things better than others. I pray all the time and I think there are resources here that can go hand in hand with prayer to help. There's nothing to be ashamed of by asking for help, instead you should view this as another step of your growth and life.  Stressing for too long and having it build and build and build is just not a healthy way to live....regardless of how big or small the situation/situations.

I'm looking forward to working on overcoming a few struggles without trying to figure it all out myself.  It's good to have someone who'll give you unbiased advice/opinions and sometimes you can't get that from family and friends. Going through certain things myself now has opened up my mind and my eyes. You just never know what others go through...people share a lot on social media and carry themselves a certain way but that doesn't mean you know them and even a bigger reason not to judge a book by its cover.  It's important to have genuine people in your circle that care about you and that you're comfortable talking to about anything, we all need those type of people.  I don't share things for attention or sympathy, I started blogging to hopefully help others. People won't always find it easy to be open with you and but if you're going through a lot don't worry because you're not alone and I hope this shed some light for others.

As I sit here waiting on my mom to come out of a procedure I ask that everyone please pray that the images the doctors saw yesterday of her esophagus is not additional cancer and that it's something else they can treat easily so she can bounce back from these tough past 6 weeks.